__________by Huntress
You make me feel like I'm not doing enough
Like I'm slacking in some way
I hear it in your written words
Think about it almost everyday.
I can't tell you that I love you
Cuz that would be a straight up lie
But I can say that I care
Too much to say goodbye.
You criticize me whether intentional or not
You make me feel so small
You make me wanna say the hell with you
Leave you talking to the wall.
At times I be ready to fly
All 2,350 miles
Across the country forgetting family
Just to see your smile.
Then I wonder if you'd even have time for me
Cuz you be sleep when I am up
I understand time zones and stuff
Other things about you have me stuck.
Yep, stuck and wondering aimlessly
Silently crying inside
Cuz within one month of knowing me
You told me you loved me, I just cried.
But how can you speak of something so serious
When u really don't even know
Me, besides my 4 initials
What do they really show?
Can you truthfully say, in all honesty?
That you are really there?
What is love? Do I fill in the blank?
Do you think you are really there?
Love can be so many things
Intangible, emotional, intense
Love can be all four seasons
Love can be common sense.
Now, I am reluctant to write
This cuz u know it is about you
I'm thinking you'll get mad as usual
Write me some more ill shyt, too.
Write about that I hurt you
When you're hurting yourself and me
But before I let you hurt me
I'll get you first, watch and see.
I mean that out of no disrespect
To you in any way
These are my feelings
Things I won't say.
You're taking advice about me from people
Who don't know shyt about me
You're feeding off of their lies
Trusting them, which are blinding eyes that once could see.
Sometimes I think you are a made up girl
That you don't really care
About true feelings that I have
Cuz you're not anxious to share.
You don't wanna talk or answer my questions
You don't wanna elaborate or explain
I know I'm new to being bi
But it's like I'm out in the rain.
Without an umbrella or a coat
Left with heavy feelings like the water
Dripping and falling fast on me
Flattening me like a quarter.
Not totally dumped on
But not safe and clean
Not like being shytted on
More so like a feen.
I like you a lot, _ _ _ _. Please don't get me wrong
You just got a lotta shyt wit you
I'm trying to be there for you
But you gotta let me boo.
Like before, I mean this
With no disrespect to you, in anyway
These are just my feelings, ill or not
Just things I won't say.
