__________by Wizdompeace
She cried that night...
We all make mistakes, but I can't change this one.
She won't let me apologize. Ripping up letters in seconds
that took days to write, hanging up on calls that took hours
of convincing.
How could she be so heartless, when I handed it back to her?
___Why does she not sign online as much? Why doesn't she
answer my messages...always deleting my emails.
I am screaming my heart out in an empty room...
_____it was not empty before.
I stand outside of her job with flowers, but she will not enter
the building to walk past me. She will not leave the building to
interact with me.
___There should be a limit to my desperation, a stop for my
insanity. She won't bring that stop. She won't block my rampage.
She cried that night...
___Amazed and devestated, I had to walk away. Her tears were
painful, I felt my mind cry.. her tears were painful.. i felt her cry.
The real me wanted to wipe her tears, wanted to hold her and erase
thoughts of our seperating., but the person I had to be (had to be)
had to leave her there.
___Leave her there with her arms holding on to her memories,
clenching on to the closet physical thing. Her tears on my mind..
Her tears i could feel.
___The love i had made me want to pray.. ..PRAY..
pray for her forgiveness. It made me want to stay. Lay next
to her and hope for the best. But I forced myself to walk out of
my heaven and slam the door entering my hell.
___It's too late to be who I should have always been. There
aren't any excuses for me now. I am at the bottom and I threw
myself there...
___She cried that night...
but the worse..or maybe the most sanctifying part was... that she
wasn't alone.
