__________by Aja
Unable to speak of physical meetings
Familiar mental existence
Has made me your lover
I don't need you
But I damn sure want you
How do I feel?
Feel...I do
Voice touching my heart
Making love to longing
Thoughts of you
While habitually in the company of another
Make this make sense?
I'll refuse
If that means one day I can have you
Meantime fix~never
Allow me to take a hit
Be my second, minute, hour...
Let's put the bullshit aside...lifetime high
"What's up mommy"
Lips drip liquid sugar
Laced with a Spanish twist
Commanding circles in my hips
How do I feel?
Feel...I do
Patient love
Or
Loyal friend
I'll be what I'm meant to be
Because late night passion and laughter
Leads to...
"I just love you"
Mouth putting money on stock
Mind never inquiring about the value of the market
Feelings...stronger
Than I've allowed you to see
Than the distance between us
Than our individual situations
Wanting pride to be stronger than love
Chaining the heart
Mind surrendering
How do I feel?
Feel...I do
If I were to set this course of love
What will I find along the way?
It's the not knowing that keeps me coming back for more
I have conjured up more questions
In this technological courtship
Than answers exist
Acquired through shared ideas
And vivid imaginations
Keeps me daydreaming as the sun lights my face
And fantasizing when night creeps in
My original sin
So
How do I feel?
Feel...I do
