by
AngelicInsanity
Some say it’s an unwritten rule that you don't date close friends, and some say you get the best of both worlds. I for one don't really know what to think because I've never been in the present predicament in which I look around and find myself in. My best friend is a stud. One whom I adore, admire, love, and any other cute descriptive star stricken word you can think of; in a sense, she's my everything, but of course she doesn't know this. When we first met she and I were hell bent on being together, but we saw so much more in one another. So, it turned into a beautiful friendship that I wouldn't trade in or give up for the world. True enough, we've been through hell and high water. Even times when we literally hated one another, but things always got back right. And unfortunately, I've never realized until recently how I truly want and need her in my life.
After school one day, I decided to go visit my stud brother, Iz. I figured she wouldn’t be home from work yet, so, when I got there I used my key to get in. When I walked in, she and another female were sitting all hugged up on the couch watching TV. Inside I grew hot in frustration, but when the time comes I happen to be a wonderful actress so of course I didn’t let it show.
"Hey bitch," I said walking into the kitchen.
"Hey whore," she hollered back. I looked around for a while until I found something to snack on then I went back into the living room where they were. I stopped in my tracks when I saw them kissing. I literally got sick my stomach, but it sucked up and walked into the room as if nothing was wrong.
"Oh, so you're just not going to introduce me to your new friend."
Iz looked up at me and rolled her eyes then pointed to me. "Lou, this is my little sister, Ivory. Ivory, this is my girl, Lou." The chick never did look up at me. I was still going to play civilized and reach out to shake the tramps hand, but when she finally did look up at me, she looked at me like I had shit on my face. Then, had the never to give me this ole dry nasty ass hey like she was busy with the TV or something. Iz quickly saw the bitch about to just bleed out of me. She hopped up and dragged me off to her room as quickly as she could. I lit right into her before she could even close the door behind us good.
"I don’t know what the fuck your little girlfriend’s problem is in there, but what I do know is that she better fix it because it almost got real serious real fast in here!" Iz laughed at me, but she knew how serious I was.
"Sis, before you get to going off on people you have to get to know her. I promise you she's not as bad as she seems." As hard as it was for me after her first impression, I smiled at Iz and said,
"Well, I guess I can let it go this time, but you better talk to her because I really didn’t appreciate that."
"She's just probably still mad at me for making her put up her work for a little while so we can chill."
I rolled my eyes. "So, she catches a tude with me. I ain't done that girl nothing, Iz." Iz sighed and dropped her head.
"Would you just please do this for me? I really like this girl, Ivory." I sighed and rolled my eyes. "Ugh, okay dayum." I was one of the very few people Iz actually trusted. So, my opinion meant a lot to her. It's always bothered me to see Iz with other girls. I guess that’s why I've always hated them all. From jump, I told myself as long as Iz was where she wanted to be and happy; I was happy, but I don’t know how true that statement is anymore. Because where I felt she should be, was with me!
We walked back into the front room, and Lou was back to doing her work. I looked down at her and rolled my eyes. Iz saw me and laughed. I sat down and began flipping the channels on the TV. Iz was whispering things in Lou’s ear, but she seemed to be ignoring them. She was really starting to burn my booty. It’s like she had an extreme attitude for no reason. I was trying to look beyond that because I know Iz, and she’s not one to put up with dumb shit like that. She’s too easy going and laid back to put up with some uptight prick. Okay. Let me stop talking about this girl and get back to my story. Right in the middle of my flipping the TV, I spotted Finding Nemo. When it came to cartoons, Iz and I were like little kids in a candy store. So, almost immediately, we began mocking the movie and killing ourselves laughing at one another. I noticed Lou had not even looked up. So, I decided to mess with her to get her to loosen up.
“Damn Lou, Why you so quiet? I know you like Finding Nemo.”
She glanced at me then looked at the TV and said, “I don’t have time for silly shit like cartoons. I have too much going on for that. So, excuse me for about three seconds while I ignore ya’ll again.” I swear to you. It’s like my mind began going off before my mouth could catch up, and Iz saw it all over my face. At this point I wanted a piece of her so bad I could taste it. I fixed my mouth to light into her, but before I could get anything out, Iz cut me off,
“C’mon sis let me walk you to your car. I know you have a lot to do so you need to go.” I knew Iz didn’t want me to start any drama so I sucked up everything I was about to give her, but I did mean mug her until she was out of my sight hoping that she would know and understand how deep she was on my shit list at this point. When I made it to my car, I didn’t even tell Iz good-bye. Lou had me just that pissed!
The rest of my day was slow. I got a lot done around the house as I had planned, but all the while my head was filled with thought of her. I’ve always wanted Iz. From the first time that we met, I just knew I had to have her in my life. She’s such a beautiful fucking person until its damn near unreal. I don’t really know what got us as close as we are today. Since I value our friendship so much, I’ve just kept my feelings under this nice and neat little wrap inside my head. I finished up everything still with Iz heavy on my mind. I usually call her and say good-night before I go to sleep, but I was still a bit on the mad side from earlier that day so I didn’t even bother. I lay down in bed and as I expected, my last thought was of Iz.
Iz was lying next to me. Just watching me in about as much amazement as when I watch her. She began kissing me on my cheeks and on my neck which immediately made my pussy wet. She gently licked and sucked on my neck causing light moans to escape my lips. When I’m home alone, I sleep in next to nothing at all. All I had on was a t-shirt so Iz had full access to any part of my body she wanted. She lifted my shirt until it was under my neck. Iz went straight for my breasts licking and sucking on my already hardened nipples. The way she let her teeth slide softly across my nipples made my body shake. Iz began heading down, skipping the middle man, and went straight for my pussy. I wanted to feel Iz’s lips to mine so bad my pussy was throbbing with anticipation. She teased me a bit licking up and down my pussy lips and slightly letting her tongue touch my clit. Just when I thought I was about to burst, I felt Iz’s tongue deep inside my pussy. She fucked me deep with her
tongue only pulling out to suck vigorously on my clit. My body was in an extreme uproar over the pleasure Iz was giving me. Unable to contain myself any longer I began to say her name. “Iz,” I moaned repeatedly pushing her deep into the already wonderful job she was doing. I was two short steps from busting my nut. When I went to moan, a strange buzzing noise came out. I heard this over and over until I opened my eyes and realized my alarm clock was going off. I reached over and hit it in frustration. My bed was soaking wet. I pulled the covers back, and I was sweating from head to toe. I relaxed my body and let myself fall back into the bed. It didn’t make any sense how much that girl stayed on my mind, and the worst part about it was that I didn’t have the balls to open up and tell her.
A few days went by, and I hadn’t talked to Iz. It bothered me, but in the same breath I didn’t look too much into it because I figured she was wrapped up in her new girlfriend. Eww that word leaves a bad taste in my mouth! I was at home curled up on the couch with the TV on reading a book when my phone rang. I looked at the caller ID and saw that it was Iz so I didn’t even say hello I just immediately started going off on her.
“Bitch it’s been three days and you decide to call me now!”
“Ivory, this is Lou. Iz has been shot.” It’s like my world came to a screeching halt. My body grew hot, and I got sick to my stomach. I had Lou tell me where she was then I jumped up to get where she was.
The emergency room was calm which was odd to me. I saw Lou walk through some double doors, and I ran to her.
“How is she? Is she okay? What happened?” Lou didn’t answer me. She just took me by the hand and led me to Iz. Another thing that struck me as odd was that we ended up in the rooming part of the hospital. I was about to become inch high private eye up in there until I walked into Iz’s room and saw her laying there. Just seeing her from across the room brought tears to my eyes. As I was walking towards her, I heard Lou began to talk.
“The doctors say she’s going to be okay. She was lucky the bullet missed her heart by only a few inches, and it went straight through.”
I looked back at Lou. “How did this happen?”
“A few days ago some chick Iz used to have beef with just came up to her job and shot her.” Lou was in mid conversation when I looked up and said,
“What! Did you just say a few days ago?” Lou knew what was coming. So, she started to explain.
“Iz said not to call you. She didn’t want you to see her like this. She knew it would kill you.” I didn’t say anything else. I was so pissed I knew if I opened my mouth it would have been some furniture moving in that hospital room. I sat down beside Iz’s bed and laid my head down. I was lost in a world wind of thoughts, but Lou broke my concentration.
“I want to apologize for the way I acted when we first met. I was mad at Iz, but I shouldn’t have taken it out on you.”
I looked at her and nodded. “Naa, you good.”
“Hell if I am. You know I got cursed left and right for pissing you off. Iz don’t play about her Ivory.”
I looked down at Iz and smiled. “And I don’t play about my Iz.”
When Iz was well and out of the hospital, its like time went on fast forward. Iz got a new and better job, and Lou and I were actually getting along. It’s a shame is happened the way it did, but Iz getting shot brought Lou and I closer together. One day Lou and I were sitting around at the house waiting for Iz to come home from work and she just asked me straight up out of the blue,
“Why didn’t you and Iz ever hook up?” I damn near choked on my drink when she said that.
“Umm what makes you think we ever wanted to?”
She laughed. “Girl, I’m not crazy or blind. There’s something more to you and Iz’s relationship that you guys aren’t willing to admit. True enough ya’ll always playing around talking about sex, but I think it is more to it.” I laughed and sat up so that I could explain myself to Lou.
“Imma be real with you, Lou. I’ve always wanted Iz.” She cut me off and yelled,
“So that’s why you hated me when we first met?”
I laughed, “Naa, that’s not why. I just didn’t like you as a person. Your first impression was a major piece of shit. I give all of Iz’s females a chance when I first meet them. I’m just always able to weed out the bullshit when it comes to her.”
“Uh huh, so what about me?”
“Once I saw that Iz really does love you, I back off of you and accepted you because Iz does, and the rest sort of fell into place.” I sat back in the chair and got comfortable again. I had started back watching TV when Lou asked,
“So, why didn’t you ever say anything?”
“I never wanted to fuck up a good friendship, and besides some things just aren’t meant to be tampered with.” Just as I was finishing up my sentence, Iz walked in the door. I suddenly got uncomfortable so I got my things and headed to the door.
“Aight, bitches I’m gone.” Iz looked at me with a frown on her face.
“But sis I just got here.” I turned away from her so that I could think of a lie as quick as possible. “Well, I’m tired and I have to study some before bed. So, I’m gone.” The way Iz looked at me I could tell she knew I was lying. Before she could say anything else I walked out the door.

My days were beginning to drag on longer and longer. Every since that little talk Lou and I had, I haven’t felt all too comfortable around the two of them. Seeing them together only hurt me. Every blue moon I would visit Lou while Iz was at work or vise versa, but that sort of faded off because I felt Lou and I’s friendship was only in vain. I mean, truth be told, I was only friends with her because she was my best friend’s girl. I think Lou herself was now getting a better realization of that.
“Why exactly do you love your brother so much?” Lou asked while we were out shopping.
“Cause I know no matter what goes on between us she’s always gonna be there for me.” Lou looked upside my head and gave me a real hard “bytch please” look.
“Let’s not get cute. You know what I meant Ivory.”
“What?!”
“C’mon now. We being serious.”
I looked around then took a deep breath. “Iz is and has always been a beautiful person, and her intelligence is the power that holds me captive.” I think I was more surprised at what came out of my mouth than Lou was because I wish I could have snatched it out of the air and swallowed it right back. It was silent. Shit was so thick someone would have had to cut it with a butcher’s knife. The rest of our day was oddly silent. We still went to store after store and even sat down to eat, but our conversation just wasn’t the same. The drive back to Iz’s place was a bit more at ease because we at least had the radio to ease both our minds. When we made it, I was going to just hop in my car and go home, but Lou’s words stopped me in my tracks.
“You know where her heart is.” Truly taken aback, all I could bring myself to say was, “Excuse me.”
“You heard me Ivory.” I don’t really know what got the best of me: her tone, her attitude, or the itch I’ve had in my ass to tell her off since the day we met. When I opened my mouth nothing but blades were falling from my tongue.
“Bitch first of all what I need you to realize is that you are bubble gum. You’re just a simple hobby or speed bump until Iz finds someone who’s truly worth your time. So, if I wanted Iz that fucking badly, when I laid eyes on you all I would have had to do was say the word, and you would have become instantly disposable. So don’t try to play me with no intimidation bullshit!” I didn’t even wait on Lou to respond. I hopped out of the car and slammed the door behind me. I couldn’t believe Lou had come at me the way she did. It’s like when I made it to my car I thought about what she had said, and it pissed me off all over again so I turned around and walked back towards her. “When we met I didn’t hate you because you were with Iz. I hated you because you were a bitch, and I saw right through you. But Iz, she sees something that I don’t, and as her sister I respected that, put my doubts aside, and opened up to you. She’s already chosen you. So, why would I be the fool and
step in between that?” Lou didn’t answer me. She just sort of gazed at me. I turned to walk away, but stopped in my tracks when I heard Lou say,
“I’m sorry Ivory. I’m just scared okay. I see you two together, and I honestly get jealous. I’ve never believed anyone could take Iz away from me until I met you.” I didn’t say anything back to her. I just continued walking to my car. I drove off frustrated, pissed, and upset all in one. I never really thought I was that transparent when it came to Iz. I mean my love for her is obvious, but I didn’t think my feelings were. All this did was prove to me that my presence in there relationship had to truly come to a minimum. So, I figured I would go out and find something or better yet someone to occupy my time until I could shake these menacing thoughts floating around ever so carelessly in my mind.
The next week didn’t go by fast enough. Not to mention, I was so anxious to get out and do something every little thing was getting on my nerves. Friday, I don’t think my manager had seen anyone clock out so fast. All she got to see was the glare of my body from the corner of her eye then I was gone! Clubs have never really been my thing, but I figured drastic times calls for drastic measures. Later that night, I decided to get up and get all fly and go to the Corner Bar. It’s not much of a club, but hey, I got to crawl before I walk. When I walked in, don’t ask me why, but I was mad nervous. It seemed as if all eyes were on me as I made my way to the bar. I’m not at all a drinker. So, when I sat down, I merely ordered a sweet tea with a lemon on the side of the glass. Not really knowing where to go or what to do, I just turned and watched the dance floor while sipping on my drink. The crowd and the music were at ease in a sense. None of all that jumping around and
screaming “bitch nigga” this and “bitch nigga” that along with a certain song. It was also no extreme loose booty bumping and grinding. I mean I like a good ass myself, but some of these chicken heads put a tad bit too much into it.
After scanning the room for a while, my eyes set on this fine ass stud holding up the wall with a few of her buddies. She looked to be about six feet (give or take a few inches), she was light skinned, she seemed to have a nice cut under the solid red fitted she was wearing. I don’t know what it was about her, but she was just sexy to me. She actually put me in the mind of Iz. (Laughing to myself) Hell that might be why I was digging on her so hard. Right in the middle of my extensive analysis of her, I noticed she was walking towards me. I instantly got nervous because I didn’t notice I was staring that hard, and even if I was, I didn’t know she was paying enough attention to me to notice that I was looking. I tired to act as nonchalant as possible and turn my back to her before she made it all the way over to me as if I didn’t notice her walking towards me. Just when I had completely turned around, I felt her hand on my shoulder.
“If you’re gonna watch me that hard, Ma, tha least you can do is speak.” Her voice sounded mad familiar to me, but I thought nothing of it. I just put on my prettiest smile and my sexiest voice and turned to her.
“Well, had I known you were watching me just as hard…” Before I could finish my sentence, I turned completely around, and there was Iz standing in front of me. My jaw hit the floor following my drink and every bit of my pride. Iz laughed at the sight of my face.
“What the hell are you doing in here, Ivory? Clubs have never been your thing.”
“I was bored and needed something to do,” I said while cleaning up the tea from my clothes, “and had I known you were gonna be here I would have stayed at home and read a book.”
Iz laughed. “Sis, please. The way you were eyeing me you need a stud in yo life.”
“Fuck you bitch! I didn’t know it was you.”
“Naa, you just know your bro is fly thas all.” She paused. I didn’t say anything; I just rolled my eyes at her then she continued, “I aint gone lie. When you first walked in, I was eyeing that ass too.” I looked up at her. Her face was still, and her gaze was strong. I could have dived on her right then and there, but I turned away from her and to finish my drink. Before I could even get the glass to my lips, she grabbed my arm dragging me off the bar stool.
“Let’s dance, sis.”
When we first got on the dance floor, the distance between Iz and I was a normal distance for two strangers because that’s what I felt like moving in front of her, but Iz quickly closed that unfamiliar gap. Iz was just like me. She wasn’t much of a drinker, but when it came to that good we would toke till we choked. The closer she got to me I could smell the faint smell of it on her so I deduced that was the cause of her behavior. Iz held on to my hips and grinded up on me to the beat as if we were straight up fucking. The only thing was missing was her strap, and if I’m not mistaken, that’s what I felt poking me in my thighs and stomach. Another song came on, and I figured I’d pay more attention to the music than Iz in order to get her off of me a bit. I put my mind on the music and tried my best to move in ways that Iz had never seen, but my bubble was quickly burst. Iz moved behind me and held me tight. She matched and made every move I made which made me loose
myself in her arms. After the song was over, my heart was beating 90 miles to nothing, and I was in a deep sweat. I stepped away from Iz but refused to look at her. My head and my mind were spinning, and before I could so much as get myself together, Iz grabbed my arm.
“C’mon. We going back to my crib. You know we ain’t got high together in a while.” I wasn’t going to protest the offer because it had been a while since I got blowed, and even if I wanted to, Iz had me out tha door and on tha street before I could say anything.
As soon as we walked through the door, my first question was,
“Where’s Lou?”
Iz looked back at me and smiled. “She’s out. That’s all I know. Why you hate her so much, Ivory?”
“I don’t hate her. I just don’t like her as a person. I only tolerate her for you.” Iz didn’t say anything else about it. She had about four blunts rolled up in no time, and knowing us, that was only the preliminaries. There wasn’t much talking which was unusual for us. Iz and I were sitting on the floor and she scooted closer to me.
“Lou told me about yawls little heart to hearts.”
I damn near choked. “What!”
“Yea, she told me everything,” she paused, and I thought my heart was going to beat its way right onto the living room floor, “but what I can’t help but ask myself is why I didn’t hear it from you?” If I didn’t know any better, I would have thought I was having an asthma attack. Her question made me nervous and uncomfortable, but I felt like she at least deserved an answer. I turned to say something, but my words were quickly swallowed by her lips and tongue. I didn’t know what I was feeling. Frankly, I didn’t care because just feeling Iz touching me and caressing me was sending me to a place I’ve never been before. Without warning, a crack of thunder hit followed by a strong downpour of rain. Iz and I jumped apart and just stared at one another. The sound of the rain beating against the window was the only thing consuming our silence. Iz was the first to speak,
“Ivory, this was my fault. I mean we was smoking and I should have…” I didn’t allow her to finish her sentence. I could have cared less about what she had to say. All I know is that I jus needed her to be mine…even if for one night.
I kissed and sucked and licked on Iz’s lips as if they were dripping with sweet honey. I kissed her deep and hard allowing are tongues to engage in a private dance of their own. With every deep breath, with every heartbeat, a piece of clothing hit the floor. In the matter of seconds, I was completely naked in Iz’s arms. Iz maneuvered her way on top of me. Every kiss she laid on my body was rough, deep, and urgent, but this only made my pussy so much wetter. Iz wasn’t exactly for taking the scenic route. She dived deep into my pussy.
Feeling her tongue inside made me moan louder than the rain pour. She sucked vigorously on my clit causing my body to shake. Iz then took her tongue and slid it up and down my pussy stopping to run the tip of her tongue across my clit. Iz didn’t have any hair, but I bet she was wishing she did so she didn’t have to feel my nails buried in her scalp. I was two shakes of a lamb’s ass from busting a beautiful nut, but Iz had other plans; she stopped.
Shaken and out of breath, I tried to speak, but Iz hushed me by kissing me deep making me taste myself. I don’t know exactly know when she had time to take her pants off. I just know in the blink of an eye, my legs were on her shoulders, and Iz entered me with one stroke. At first, she started off slow and easy while gradually getting faster and harder. Eventually, Iz was hitting it so good I couldn’t even moan. I would open my mouth and could barely hear air. I was caught up in euphoric ecstasy when I heard Iz whisper in my ear, “Cum for me.”
Her wish was my command. I took a deep breath, and it’s as if time itself stopped. I could hear every single drop of rain hitting whatever surface it touched. Everything came back into place when I cried out, “Iz” simultaneously with an enormous clap of thunder. Iz relaxed and let her body rest on top of me. My body was as relaxed as it was ever going to get, so I just held her in silence.
I’m not really sure how much time passed by. Minutes maybe hours, but we began to hear keys jingling at the door. Iz was the first to jump to her feet throwing my clothes at me as if I was some cheap one night stand. At the time, I didn’t think much of it but only tried to get them on before Lou made it through the door, but needless to say, I was unsuccessful. Lou entered the room and looked dead into my eyes. She didn’t need to survey much to get a perfect idea of what had went on. Without a word she ran back out of the door, and Iz followed in close pursuit. I rushed to get my clothes on as quick as possible.
They were standing in the rain yelling at one another. I couldn’t hear what was being said, but I could tell by the gestures that it was an argument. I was going to keep my distance until the heat switched to me, but I saw Lou reach back and slap the down home blues out of Iz. I ran up to her pushing her away form Iz.
“What the fuck is your problem?!”
She stepped closer to me our noses almost touching. “You are! I knew this fucking day would come.” For the first time, I honestly felt bad for the feelings that I was harboring for Iz. “I just knew you were going to try it.”
“Lou, I’m sorry. We’re both sorry. It just happened, aight, but you knew how I felt about, Iz. What did you expect? All this will prove is where her heart truly is.” Lou looked at Iz as if she was searching for an answer to my statement in her eyes. When she didn’t get it fast enough, Lou turned to run again. I turned to Iz, and the look she gave me scared me. I could barely see my hand in front of my face due to the rain, but I felt the gaze that Iz was giving me, and I already knew what it meant. In response, I merely stepped out of her path.
I watched painfully as Iz ran Lou and embraced her. All I could think in my mind was, What about me?
I learned a hard ass lesson that night that I won’t soon forget. Just because they are unwritten rules, doesn’t mean that they are meant to be broken.

The End

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