by Marsha BlueI regret even picking
Up the phone
Dialing that number
Or even better yet
You even answering
It showed that I was weak
Showed that I had no pride
Not even love for myself
I kick myself each time
I forgot how it felt
I guess the empty feeling
Of starting over
That hollow feeling
Of accepting the closure
I feel nothing right now
No pain
No pleasure
Just this empty
Vacant feeling
No one could measure
If it was assessed this
Thing that is happening to me
I guess u could say that I
Feel love for her unconditionally
Unintentionally
Uninvited was me
She doesn?t even see
Or better
the person who
Doesn?t get it
I think is me
The only one that is getting
The silence
Feelings of much less
Even though it isn?t said
But your actions are ringing truth
In my head
In my eyes
It just occurred to me
I just realized
that this is toxic
Hectic and most of all
For my heart chaotic
Feeling like I am drowning in
My own feelings
Feel like I am suffocating on my
Own love
My own heart is failing me
It hurts the most to the fact that
You don?t even acknowledge
Don?t even recognize
That there was something there in me
It is ok despite the fact that
It is good to see
It is fair for me
To accept this and move on
Be free
Unchain myself from the void
That I am holding on
To fill it by just accepting
And over all be strong.
I have to realize that I am stronger
Better with out you
