by
Brown Curiousity

Part 2
Karyn made it upstairs right before seven A.M., lugging her laundry bag with her. When she entered the room her roommate stirred in her sleep.
"Karyn?"
Karyn stopped dead in her tracks, "What?" she said defensively.
"Is that why you weren't here when I came in?" Shatani asked as she sat up, "You were doing laundry?"
Karyn didn't answer, she just hoped that Shatani didn't notice the love bites on her neck. "What time did you get in?" "Hour ago I think...see first me and Neesha went to this party, then we saw Jeff and Omar...and then..."
Karyn wasn't really listening though it was the first time her roommate had really attempted to have any kind of conversation with her. She was too busy thinking about Zai. Too busy trying to calm her racing thoughts.
Over the next couple of weeks her classes and studying took up most of Karyn's time. She hadn't really seen Zai since that night they were together. She saw her in passing but Zai was always with someone else or busy and on the way to class. Even when she did speak to Karyn it was only to casually say "what's up" as she whipped past Karyn. At first Karyn didn't think much of it. Then she realized that she began to miss Zai. She tried calling her a couple of times. Zai answered once and the conversation was somewhat awkward and short. Zai didn't call her Ma or mention anything at all about their night together, but quickly blew her off for the next call on call waiting saying, "Hey I'll see you around."
This began to bug Karyn. She thought that she and Zai were going to be close friends now and maybe even continue what they had started. Karyn didn't know what exactly the sexual part of their encounter meant, but she knew that she wanted desperately to at least be Zai's friend. That night meant a lot to her.
One day Karyn decided to be proactive. She knew that Zai's volleyball team would be at the fitness center practicing. She had decided to show up right after Zai's practice. But on her way to the gymnasium she was stopped dead in her tracks by what she saw. Zai stood outside of the gym, all sweaty and glistening--for some reason this was attractive to Karyn-and she was talking to another girl. Not just friendly talking. Their body language was telltale. The girl was pretty and very feminine. She leaned against the wall as Zai nearly covered her with her body as she leaned against the wall too. She spoke to the girl with a smile on her face, her eyes working that magic that Karyn knew. She didn't hear what Zai was saying, but could hear the hushed dulcet tones breathily leaving her mouth. She was only a few yards away, but Zai didn't even notice. She was still chatting up this pretty Latina looking girl with long wet looking wavy hair, the tips colored a blond-ish type while the rest a chocolate brown. The girl wore a short denim skirt and a tight halter-top. Karyn couldn't stop watching her as she sassily snapped her gum, chewing with those glossy lips. She wasn't attracted to the girl, just intrigued. Why would this kind of girl appeal to Zai so much that she'd actually hold a conversation with her when she barely said two words to Karyn?
Finally Zai turned to see Karyn. Her whole countenance changed to that of surprise and maybe even a little embarrassment, but then she covered this up by quickly smiling and waving, "Hey Karyn, what's up long time no hear? On your way to a Phys class?"
Karyn didn't want to talk to her, but couldn't explain the fact that she had been just standing there staring straight at the two girls. The one in the skirt actually gave Karyn a dismissive look with a frown on her face.
"Yeah, I uh...gotta go. See ya." Karyn said and quickly walked away. She didn't know where she was going, but she walked through the building until she found an exit and burst her way out of it. It was the back of the fitness center, in a quiet, and secluded area at the edge of campus. Karyn sat down on a set of stairs at the back of the building and held her head in her hand. She wanted to cry for some reason. She looked down at her loose fitting t-shirt and realized that she was wearing sweats. No wonder Zai thought she was going to work out. Why was she dressed so lamely?
Maybe that's why Zai didn't even give her a second look. She wasn't good enough the way she was.
"You need to wear more fitted clothes. You'd look sexier."
Those words echoed throughout her head as she walked back to her dorm.
Once she got inside of her room, Karyn made a huge mess by pulling out all of her clothes, trying to find at least one thing that was cute. "All this stuff is for a slob or an old lady..." she said to herself. This is when Shatani walked in, "Whoa...what hurricane hit this place?" She said as she looked at all of Karyn's clothes strewn about her roommate's side of the room.
"Nothing." Karyn said, suddenly embarrassed.
"What are you doing?" Shatani said. Karyn rolled her eyes as Shatani stood behind her sipping the last remnants of a soda through a straw. She hated that sound.
"Would you knock it off?" Karyn snapped, immediately feeling bad afterward.
Shatani turned up her lip and made a face as if she had smelled something foul, "Geez. Sorrrrreeee..." the dark brown skinned beauty said flipping her long dark hair back.
Karyn sighed falling down on her bed and all of her clothes, "I'm sorry Shatani, I'm just frustrated."
"Why?"
"My clothes are ugly. I'm just realizing this. I'm...I'm embarrassing..."
"Well, I didn't want to say anything." Shatani raised an eyebrow slightly widening her chinky slanted brown eyes.
Karyn sat up with a mortified look on her face and Shatani laughed, "I'm joking girl. Relax."
"No you're not."
"What's with wanting to look all cute now?"
Karyn didn't say anything but Shatani gave a knowing smile. "I knew it! You got somebody don't you?"
Karyn said nothing, but her face gave her away.
"I KNEW something was up with your neck!" Shatani jumped up and down "Those WERE hickies on your neck a couple of weeks ago! I knew it, but then I said, 'Nah that must be a rash' but then..."
Karyn blushed.
"So it's true?"
Karyn was silent.
"Oh WHO!"
"It's nothing Shatani."
"Umm hmm." Shatani said as she folded her arms across her chest, "Fine don't tell me. Play the shy role. But one thing's for sure you ain't gonna impress this dude with those clothes.
Karyn felt like she was on the verge of tears, "There's no 'dude'."
"Whatever, but I'll help you out with your wardrobe okay?"
Karyn looked up and down at Shatani who she guessed though went over the top sometimes with the shortest and tightest things, mostly knew how to look good. She wanted to look good for once in her life, she didn't care about whether she looked "slutty" or "fast" as her mother would label. She was eighteen now, a grown woman. She had the right to make her own decisions.
"Well, Okay."
"Good, we gotta start with getting rid of most of this stuff. Oh let me call Neesha she's good at this..."
The next day they were going shopping with the credit card Karyn's parents gave her for emergencies and small purchases. They went to a number of stores, picking out trendy things that were definitely more fitted and sexy, though Karyn, despite her initial plans to try to intentionally go over board, put her foot down on some of the shortest tightest things they tried to squeeze her in. But she had to admit that she felt good shopping for once in her life.
"Girl, why was you hiding that little figure. You're cute," Neesha said as she tried on a dress for them.
Karyn made off with several shopping bags full of stuff including new underwear, accessories and make up.
"I don't know who this dude is you're trying to impress..." Neesha said as they drove home.
"There is no one I just want to look decent for once..."
"Ummm hmmm..." Shatani said sarcastically.
"...but you are going to be laced for the dorm party on Saturday."
"Dorm party?" Karyn asked.
"Everyone is going to be there from the building, oh yeah and even that cute RA Rasheed..." Shatani swoon.
"RA's too?"
"It's for the dorm, you coming out right?" Neesha said looking back from driving to see Karyn's face.
"Ummm...yeah. Okay," she answered even though she realized that her mom wanted her to come back home for the weekend. However she'd have to blow off her mom, even though that felt insanely alien to her, and explain the almost four hundred dollar Visa bill. When Shatani saw the final ring up all she said was, "Girl you got a lot for four bills." But Karyn wasn't so enthusiastic. When her mom got the statement she'd flip and ask a bunch of questions that Karyn did not want to answer.
"We gonna have you hooked up girl..."

"Wow, total change..." Shatani said fawning over Karyn's new look. Karyn was dressed in an army green halter top which hung off of her body just right, not tight, but revealing the right amount of skin to make it sexy. It had tiered frills and was made of a soft and flowing material that seemed very feminine to Karyn despite the color. With that she wore a pair of the tightest lowest riding jeans she had ever owned. Sure she could breathe, but they gripped her hips and thighs tightly, giving her the perfect ass. She wore this outfit with a pair of heels and a pair of metallic chandelier type earrings. Her micro braids were styled with a little "bump" pompadour in the front, while the rest flowed down her back in loose curls styled with Shatani's big barreled curling iron. Neesha did Karyn's make up, which really wasn't much, just a bit of concealer here and there for a couple of blemishes (since her skin was basically perfect), some eye make up and glossy translucent lip color.
"You look like a whole different girl..." Neesha said.
And Karyn couldn't help but to agree as she stared at herself in the mirror. She didn't know she was actually this pretty. All she did know is that she wanted desperately for one person to think she was pretty, and she was sure she'd see her tonight.
The party happened on top of the roof of the dorm and it was packed even with people who didn't dorm there. Shatani, Neesha and Karyn walked in together and for the first time Karyn felt visible. Many eyes were on them when they entered. At first it made Karyn self-conscious but she noticed tons of approving stares from guys so she was more assured that she looked good.
And that's when she saw her. It was Zai. Her heart beat fast when she saw Zai's pretty face. It didn't help matters that she actually looked damned good tonight. She wore an off the shoulder novelty "t-shirt" type top that was so long and tight around her frame it could've been a dress. It came to about mid thigh, underneath she wore a pair of tight dark washed jeans with old school black and white Chuck Taylor sneakers. She watched as Zai smiled broadly and talked to a small group of people, her bangles glinting in the dark, her long eye lashes fluttering. Karyn felt a lump in her throat. What was she going to do now?
Luckily she didn't have to think. A cute guy came up to her and began talking to her. She was caught off guard at first, but her new look gave her confidence. To her delight she was having a real conversation with a real guy (who was cute). She almost forgot about why she had came here, especially since throughout the night where ever she happened to float guys came up to her left and right, flirting with her or asking her to dance. She was so preoccupied she didn't even notice that Zai had noticed her a long time ago.
When Karyn had finally found a moment to breathe she noticed that she didn't see Zai around anywhere. She walked around a bit but couldn't find her. She didn't know what she'd do once she did, but still not knowing where she was bothered her.
Sighing, she entered the building to go to the bathroom. Carrying her little bag she entered a bathroom on that floor. As she reapplied lip gloss in the mirror, Zai entered and stood right behind her. Their eyes locked in the mirror and without words from either one of them, Zai approached Karyn from behind and before she knew it she heard a quiet buzzing and felt vibrating against her ass. Zai whispered in her ear, "That's something in my pocket. But I am happy to see you." She bit her bottom lip as she backed up and walked to the last and biggest stall on the far side of the room. She gave a "come here" nod with her head. Still, without words, Karyn followed.
Once they were both inside Zai locked the door. It didn't take them long to figure out what they both wanted to do. They began to kiss and grope at each other, Zai reaching around and grabbing the younger girl's firm little ass and squeezing as she snaked her tongue into her mouth. This time there were no slow lingering kisses, there was just the gnashing of lips and tongues and sloppy wet sucking sounds. They were kissing nastily and as if their lives depended on it. Karyn was so excited because she had missed Zai terribly, and was so happy to be with her again.
Zai had Karyn pinned against the wall, kissing her neck and sucking her tits through her blouse. Karyn moaned loudly, not being able to restrain herself though she knew that anyone could come in at anytime and discover them. This was just so taboo to her. A few weeks ago she was an innocent college freshmen, now she was making out in a bathroom with a GIRL whom she had a crush on. Who knew?
Zai continued to suck and nibble on Karyn's breasts, leaving two disconcerting dark stains on her blouse. She laughed a bit to herself when she saw them.
"Don't laugh at me, how about I do that to you?"
"You're not going to have time..."
"Why's that?"
"You're going to be too busy cumming..."
Zai sure knew what to say to get Karyn excited. Zai was aggressive tonight and she liked it. She began to unzip Karyn's jeans, pulling down her panties.
"I see you don't shave yet."
"Yet?" Karyn thought. People shaved down there? She looked down at her own little mound covered by a small fluff of brown hair. She got even wetter when she realized that this was Zai's first time seeing her pussy.
Zai reached into her pocket and pulled out the item that buzzed against her ass earlier.
"What's that?" Karyn whispered.
Zai turned the short little vibrating stick on and answered, "A pocket rocket." She smiled and began to kiss Karyn again, pressing her body against hers and biting her bottom lip playfully...before Karyn knew it, she felt the buzzing sensation against her pussy.
"Ooohhhhh damn Zai..."
Zai pressed against the girl as she worked the toy against her slit, buzzing at her nether lips and dragging it up until it hit the base of her clit. This is when Karyn's knees nearly buckled at the intense sensation.
"It's not even on high..."
"Oh my God..." Karyn moaned holding on to Zai for dear life. Zai knew what to do to tease the girl, making motions all around her clit instead of going for the very tip. She swirled the little toy around and around each time bringing Karyn close but then letting up. Karyn could hardly stand it. Her hips bucked against Zai. She wanted to cum so bad.
Suddenly they heard the creaking of the door and a mess of voices. Apparently a gaggle of girls had come in. Karyn was mortified yet turned on at the same time. Could they hear the buzzing? Her moaning? She didn't want to stop. She wanted to cum so badly.
"You wanna cum with all these bitches in here?" Zai whispered in her ear. Karyn should've answered no, but she said, "Yes...hell yeah."
And that's when Zai did it. She placed the tip of the toy directly on the tip of Karyn's clit. It was a soft sensation that made Karyn's legs numb and her head swirl. It was the best feeling she ever had. She couldn't hold back she began to gasp and moan loudly. All chatter in the bathroom stopped as the girls listened, whispering and giggling amongst themselves.
And then there was no way to hide her noisiness once Zai turned the toy up full blast and sent wave after wave of intense orgasmic pleasure throughout Karyn's body. Zai had to hold her up to keep her from collapsing on the floor since her knees went weak.
"Oh God Zai!" She called out, not realizing that she had now blown the identity of her lover.
When Karyn came down from her high, Zai whispered in her ear, "Stay in here until you're sure the coast is clear okay?"
"Where are you going?"
Zai didn't answer, she walked out of the bathroom and closed the stall. Karyn locked it immediately. All she heard was Zai say, "What's up? You never heard a girl pleasure herself before?"
There were snickers and laughs and soon all of the girls had practically ran out of the bathroom, taking their laughter with them down the hall.
Zai knocked on the door and said, "Hey Ma, chill here for about five or ten minutes."
When Karyn came back to the party she tried to act normal even though her panties were soaked and her knees were weak. She hoped she didn't smell as if she had just came a whole bunch of times. Suddenly Shatani came up to her, "Oh my God Karyn you will not just believe what I heard happen?"
A group of girls formed as they whispered about the incident in the bathroom.
"She actually said that?"
"Why would she be calling her own name?"
"There was another voice. I know it. Another voice."
"I didn't see another girl come out."
"I always knew she was a dyke anyway..."
Karyn's heart stopped cold once she heard the word "dyke". It was the first time she was faced with the prospect that people could actually view her this way too. She had never thought of Zai as a "dyke". She just thought of Zai as "Zai". But it all made sense. Zai macked girls right in front of her face.
"Oh my God." Karyn thought to herself, "Am I a lesbian?"
Even though she spent the rest of the party dancing with guys and flirting, this question remained on her mind.

The last month had been a whirlwind of activity for Karyn. She began to party with Neesha and Shatani, going out to bars with the fake ID she bought with her mother's credit card, hustling her way into clubs. She had even been sort of seeing a guy named David. He ran in Shatani's circle, and began to flirt with her heavily. The pressure from Neesha and Shatani convinced Karyn to "talk" to him. They had hung out a few times, mostly around other people. Karyn knew he was one of those fast talking popular freshmen on campus who knew everyone, but that's about all she knew. Either way, she liked being semi-popular, and she was having more fun than she ever had in high school. Zai was on her mind, but she tried not to think about her too much. She was torn. She wanted to talk to Zai but her friends' general consensus on the RA was well, less than flattering.
One night Karyn went down to the basement to do her laundry. That's when she saw Zai in her usual laundry outfit of a Sweatshirt and shorts, earphones plugged into her ears. Her heart jumped when she saw Zai, but she didn't even go over to her to talk to her since a couple of girls were already in there together washing their clothes. She hated to admit it to herself, but she was reluctant to be seen talking to Zai especially since her new group of friends spoke badly of her ever since the "incident" at the bathroom. Karyn didn't feel as bad as she should've though, because she rationalized that Zai had been ignoring her too, and not treating her like a real friend anyway.

"If she had treated me like I was visible none of this would've happened." Karyn rationalized to herself.
Karyn began washing her clothes, pretending to ignore Zai, wondering if Zai was pretending to ignore her.
Finally the two girls left and Karyn and Zai were alone. Karyn took this opportunity to try to talk to her.
She walked over and tapped Zai on the shoulder. Zai looked up and pulled her earphones out, "Yeah?"
"Just saying hey."
"Hey," Zai went back to the book she was reading.
Karyn frowned, "So is that how you act when I try to start a conversation?"
"Right. You just had to wait until everyone left though right?"
"What's that supposed to mean?"
"You know what that means, you wouldn't want your new crew to know that you even know I exist huh?" Zai said crossing her legs as she looked up at the younger girl.
"I don't understand..." Karyn said softly, "Why are you acting mad with me when you're the one who's been blowing me off?"
"You mean getting you off?" Zai laughed.
"Look, I'm sorry if people are talking about you but..."
"You think I care about those people and what they say? You think I don't know some people just see me as a volleyball dyke?"
Karyn stood with her mouth partly open in shock.
"And don't worry about me, I convinced mostly everyone that it was just one big joke. Ironically sophomoric stunts are not uncommon amongst us RAs. Mostly everyone else gets it except the people you run around with."
"But it wasn't a joke." Karyn said getting defensive.
"Oh yeah you wanna tell them the truth? I mean I don't care about what they think of me, I just don't want to get in trouble with administration and lose my job."
Karyn didn't answer.
"That's what I thought. Anyway, I care even less about what freshmen trash is saying about me. Even if I'm the one who saved one of that piece of trash's reputation."
Karyn's brows furrowed, "Excuse me? What the hell is your problem?" Karyn raised her voice.
"Yeah I know about you, hanging out in clubs and acting like a slut."
Karyn couldn't respond at first. She began to turn red in anger. She knew the tears were going to come but she didn't want them to.
"You're just like them. Boy you sure fooled me. Start dressing a little different and now you're grinding up on every boy who pays you attention."
Karyn scoffed, "You're a fucking hypocrite."
Zai's eyes widened, "Excuse me?"
"The first time you even gave me a second thought was when I was at that party in my new gear...the kind you wanted to see me in anyway. You're a hypocrite. You act like I'm wrong for dressing differently but you'll only talk to girls if they are dressed like me."
Zai was surprised at Karyn's new boldness. It threw her off. "You think this is just about what you wear? Wow. You really are fucking naïve Karyn. You've got a lot to learn."
"But it's true. You could mess around with me when no one was around, but not even talk to me in public right?"
"You've been the one too busy with your new home girls to check for me..."
"Before that...before the party...you were too busy for me. Remember? Or did you just get amnesia or something? You didn't even LOOK at me since that night we were together. And it wasn't until I changed the way I looked that you even wanted anything to do with me. You...you still didn't even 'talk' to me. You just took it in the bathroom. Used me to get what you want..."
Zai rolled her eyes, "You've been listening to those little girls again right? I'm some predator super dyke, dying to sniff y'all's panties..."
"You know what you are Zai? You're sorry. I'm sorry I ever wanted to be your friend."
"I'm sorry I let you trick me into thinking you were someone you're not..."
Karyn was too upset to respond further. She didn't want to keep arguing so she left. She'd come back for her laundry when it was done, hoping Zai would not be there.

Part 3